Things I Say Through Writing

Question! Does love ruin friendships?  I thought it goes hand-in-hand.  Many says the foundation of love is friendship.  But why is it that sometimes, when you feel something like love for your friend, and honestly tell her what you feel…all things change.  The friendship suddenly seems to be gone. 

Well, I don’t know if she’ll have the time to read this.  Or even bother to take a look at my blog.  But the thing is, I only wanted to tell her what I felt.  I was just being honest…coz I thought it was what she wanted…honesty!  Now, I wish I never was honest!  I should have just kept what I felt for her.  Maybe she and I were still close today.  Maybe I wasn’t writing this right now.  I do miss the friend I knew before all the honesty thing.  I wish there is a way to bring back the past and erase everything I said and did.  But I know it is an impossible thing to ask for.  I don’t know what to do now.  I wish we could bring back whatever friendship we had before.  Forget what I told you.  What’s more important for me is the friendship we had before.  Please?

Another day has gone by

Another day without your smile

Another day not hearing your voice

Another day without a choice

Here imprisoned in my own home

Nothing I can do aside from…to dream of you

Honestly, I can’t get you out of my head

Now, I wonder what all these meant

Maybe I’m just afraid to accept the fact

That somehow you are wanted by my heart

I thought it would not be this painful

I thought I already know how to deal with this pain

I know that a moment like this may come

But I thought, not now…not again…not this time

For you said that you were not looking

Every time I ask you if you could love me too

Indeed you were not…for you were actually "waiting"

Waiting for the time for him to come back

Waiting for him to maybe ask for your hand

While all the time I was here caring for you

Your heart was actually waiting for him

You never gave importance to what I have done

As if I’m like a ghost that you only hear but you never see

I woke up today

Wishing you were here beside me

Wanted to see your smile

Wanted to hear your voice

I’m afraid that one day

The time will come that I should go away

I wouldn’t know what to do

But all I know is, I don’t wanna lose you

Please tell me not to go

Please tell me…so I’ll stay

Please don’t let me go

‘Coz I can’t bear to live my life without you

Heto ako naglalakbay

Umaasang aliwin ng mga tanawin

Upang sa kahit saglit ng aking buhay

Umaasang makalimutang maalala ka

Heto ako papunta sa malayo

Papalayo sa mga bagay na nakakapagpaalala sayo

Kinakailangang gawin ko ito

Hanggang sa maalis kita sa aking puso

I could write a thousand poems

Just to show you how much I love you

I could fill a book with all the things I wanna say

To let you know how important you are to me

I could do so many things to show you I’m in pain

For you to have pity on me

I could send you messages all day and all night

To let you know I’m really sorry

I can make words rhyme

To let it sound with harmony

But you know what, the only thing I know I can’t do

Is to make you love me all over again

In my dreams

You are mine

Mine to hold

Mine to kiss

Mine to love

For the rest of my life

In my dreams

No one can love you but me

But in reality

You love someone and that’s not me

Hanggang kailan kita mamahalin?

‘Yan ang tanong ng puso’t damdamin

Simula nung tayo ay magmahalan

Mundo ko ay simula nang mabuo

Hindi na lang isang tunog

Hindi na lang isang kulay

Mundo ko ay sumaya

Wala nang lungkot at luha

Maaari bang mahalin kita

Kahit na alam ko na ang mahal mo ay siya?

Minsan ika’y naaalala pa rin

Sa mga gabing malungkot at mahangin

Naaalala ang mga oras na ika’y kasama

Nasa piling ko at yakap-yakap ka

Kayhirap limutin ang mga magagandang alaala

Kayhirap tanggapin na ika’y wala na sa aking piling

Minsan may luha pa ring pumapatak

Kasabay ng mata ang puso sa pag-iyak

Gustong isigaw ang nadaramang sakit

Upang sa iyo’y maipahiwatig

Na sa simula ng mawala ka

Inaamin ko…Mahal pa rin kita

If today would be my last

What could I do

The only question I’d ask

Would you say that you love me too?

I’d always hold your hand

Where ever we may go

I’ll show you I’m happy

‘Coz that’s what you made me

I’d hug you so tight

I’d make you close your eyes

I’ll whisper in your ear

My final words…"I Love You"